The Goal Posts Have Changed Slightly.....

I've now set myself a sort of short term goal of getting to a UK size 16/US size 12.I'll see how I fit in my 16 leopard print and cherry dresses and how fit and healthy I am,and then decide from there whether I am happy or whether I want to lose more..............more importantly whether I am able to walk in heels! ;P

Every time I picture the 'dream me' in my head,it's me as a 40's style Rubenesque glamour puss.Pencil skirt,killer heels,red lips and big boobs and big ass.I will never have small boobs.As a slim 12 year old I was wearing a C cup! My flatmate also recently installed a pole in our living room and every time I look at it I picture myself shimmying around it for the Scotsman in a corset and french knickers much like this.........
Isn't she gorgeous? I honestly would be happy at that size.I think she's about a 16

I've been thinking about it a lot lately and while trawling cyber space have gotten inspiration from some heavenly voluptuous beauties such as:

Kersosene Deluxe.An absolutely stunning alternative pin up with killer curves.I love this particular photo of her in a corset.How gorgeous.And that's her in the above photo.

Crystal Renn. Divine,divine,divine!!!!

The girls from the Bravissimo ads.

As well as this fab post by Danielle at Without Compulsion.I really urge you to read this.Every single word she wrote resonated with me.Especially the bit she wrote about feeling sexy in her own skin rather than waiting around for the perfect body.

I think I've got the hourglass shape and killer curves to carry off a 16,and more importantly I adore being a curvaceous woman.All the women I lust after and admire and have dated (The Scotsman is my first heterosexual relationship but that's another blog post altogether) have been gorgeous,super feminine but super curvy girls.Why then am I putting pressure on myself to lose 100 lb's?

I must say,I feel lot of self inflicted pressure has been lifted since I made that mini goal.Of course I will still continue swimming and walking and eating healthily,but the pressure of that 100 lb loss is gone.I'll still keep the ticker up as a reminder of how much I'm losing,and who knows,maybe I do need to lose 100 lb's to reach a 16.I'm currently a 22 though,so I doubt it.

On another tangent.how ridiculously more pricey is it to eat healthily? As I mentioned before,I'm on a tight skint-flint budget and it's so hard to eat healthily.I have a farmfoods down the road and if I wanted to eat fatty processed shite,I could easily have spent £10 and gotten a weeks worth of meals.Ridiculous.

Oh,and I did an hours walk today :D