Well,I've decided to go it alone.Like Sophie,and you really MUST read her blog,she's fab,I know WW inside out due to the many tries and fails over the last 6 years.I must also confess that the whole points things just feels to restricting and diet like and totally feeds into my neurotic side.

I've gutted my room in anticipation of Hogmanay.Hoping and wishing that going into the new year with a clean room will somehow make me continue these tidy habits long into 2010,and I found.............

14 pin up - rockabilly dresses
5 pencil skirts in various patterns and variations
4 cute pin up style tops and
1 FAB leopard print coat,oh so Rita Hayworth (stay with me please,it's not a trashbag one you will find at shops like Quiz etc,) All in much smaller sizes that I bought in a delusionary state,thinking I'd be able to slim down into.And there are many more gorgeous Irregular Choice and Red or Dead heel which I simply cannot walk in at the mo.

Well,no more delusions.I WILL be slim by the end of this year,and I'm not gonna look back at all my failed attempts.I'm 30 this year - this is gonna be the best decade of my life :D

Still F*AT*

I'm back.New year,new me blah blah blah and all that shite.

I weighed myself the other day and no surprise here,but I've put on a few more pounds and am at the heaviest I've ever been.I don't know what happened to my mojo.I have been slim before and therefore I KNOW I can do this.I've just been so lax and plain STOOPID.

Won't be as fabulously slim for my 30th as I would have wished,but dammit I will be fabulous and a wee bit slimmer none the less.

My 2 nearest and dearest have,as politely as you can when it comes to matters of weight,expressed concern about my health and worsening asthma.And I'm now sick of having to shop in plus size stores and not having any style of my own.I used to have my own individual style,now it's just whatever I can get that fits,and looks semi nice.

So,I don't know how I will approach this this year,but I HAVE to do this,I'm getting winded climbing up the two flights of stairs to my flat and dammit I'm vain.I want to be able to fit into my rack of pretty dresses and walk in heels and make heads turn again.....for the right reasons too.

Will report back soon with a plan of action - meeting vs. online.Weight watchers vs. Slimming world,gym vs. outdoor physical exercise.etc. etc.

xox